HAPPY NEW YEAR... awesome... new year is cool

I spent the new years week with my friend Julia and she got me a Tamagotchi... YAY... I wanted that... got drunk, in the presence of my mom... oh well she didnt care... then we went out with some kids to have a little fun... Constantine and Alan invited us to have fun... no biggy... let me explain though... Alan likes me and Constantine likes Julia... BUT... I like Constantine and Julia likes Alan... yikes... Big problem...

Alan is a cute guy though... he went by julia's house at about 1 or so and asked if we would come over... Constantine was tripping over himself and falling at it was funny... at Alans house Constantine totaly passed out in the front... Julia went to help him and Alan was with me in his room... he was obviously all over me... though nothing happened of course... He's cute... but he's short... (I tend to like taller guys) Ok so I'm a bit shallow when it comes to that... but i just find his hight as a bit of a turn off...

Anyway... Constantine totally likes Julia and I know this... and I have hung out with him before... but really I kinda like him a bit now... I don't know whats going on around here, but Julia then tells me that she kinda likes Alan and WOW... it gets kinda confusing... I always though Julia had better luck with guys... and She DOES... whether it be her age or her beauty... (she is a whole lot prettier then me and I know this... She tells me that she thinks that I am good looking too but I laugh at the though... going back to the comments I get all the time) But she does have more luck with guys... for instence... she has a guy named Eddie totally going goo goo ga ga over her and asking for marriage and everything... not to mention the other 5 GUYS that like her like that... (not to mention constantine)

So yeah... No luck in that category... she says that I am really attractive and that I gotto wait a bit... but the fact is after breaking up with a total moron, the LAST thing I want to do is wait... I want to forget... Forget, and forget as fast as possible... Cause the truth is Igor has been on my mind all week and it's killing me... It's killing me and I feel like I made the wrong choice when I broke up... and I KNOW that I made the right choice cause he didnt care... So yeah ... it's confusing...

Well whatever... I have no luck with guys and thats no prob... maybe its just the year... I always have bad luck on leap years... maybe this year will be different... maybe this year things will look up for me... maybe this year I'll be happier...

Wow... It's been awhile... I didn't want to go on this site for the longest time... so much has changed I can't believe it... lets start from where I left off...

I got my tongue pierced... Woohoo... not really that cool anymore...

A week later my dad died... I loved him a lot and his memory will live on forever... May he always rest in piece...

After that I was in such a crappy mood for a while and I just noticed how much a personally changed over that next month...

To make a long story short... In the remaining time I managed to get have a boyfriend (Igor), realize he's a jerk, and break up... doesn't matter what the story is...

I have made a whole lot of new friends near New Utrecht and really have a few good laughs... They are all really nice people...

BTW... MERRY CHRISTMAS... I hate the holidays personally, so you can keep all the joy for yourself... lol...

So many details about the past few months that I just don't want to explain... But I will write about what happened on thursday...

I walked John to keyfood and what not and by the time I got back to New Utrecht, It was pouring (so much for a white christmas...) I ran into billy, nicole, and rob though... we were really wet, so after a quick walk to the park (where we found Candis and Joe waiting) we went to Joannes house and dropped all our cloths into the dryer... Afterwards we hung out for a bit and went off to bay 8th to drink... it was late so nicole didnt drink, but I knew she wanted to... I guess we waited too long... anyway later on billy left with nicole and me, patty, and joanne stayed a bit before heading back too...

I knew I should have been heading home, but on the way I ran into Alex and Angel... They were heading to Carls garage and I really wanted to go to... At the garage I saw Shawn, Gabe, and Patty and Joanne were already there... I have been around Gabe when he was drunk before, and  it wasn't pretty... he goes nutts... the first time... he was crying and being all sad and I tried to make him feel better but that wasn't really helping obviously... and on thursday, he got drunk again... and he started crying... again... and I tried to calm him down... again.... and it wasn't helping... AGAIN... I have a strange feeling he is just doing it for attention... I'm probably right...

Anyway... Alex got wasted too and later on he passed out on Joannes floor... I think she got in trouble... but anyway... He was making out with Patty, and I actually thought he had a girlfriend... so yeah, he was out of it... As for me... I was so trashed Angel was fucking groping me and feeling me out and I didn't say anything... that's not the way I usually act... I usually don't do that... It ended with us going outside for 'fresh air' and making out for like half an hour... I don't even like the guy that much... and he has a BIG mouth... lol... thats not always a good thing... XP 

Then... only THEN sis I decide to look at the watch... 11:30... yeah I was screwed... Got home at 1 in the friekin morning looking like shit, smelling like vodka, with hickeys on my fucking neck... Yeah... I thought I was screwed... LUCKILY... my mom went to sleep at ten and didn't see me come in... Damn... There are those days when you just wish you went home...

Well... now that that's over with... I'm out... Merry Christmas... tata 

   I got back a long time ago... in the beginning of september... but i didn't have much to say... It was fun i guess...

   I AM GETTING MY TONGE PIERCED WITH NIKOLE AND JULIA ON FRIDAY... YAYAYAYAAY

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- Saturday As Usual

   I am leaving... nothing much to say... I'm leaving the country and going to Ukraine for a month... so, yeah...